i moved from california to nevada in 2008 to live near my youngest son and daughter-in-law, three months before my breast cancer diagnosis. incredible timing, and we became so close to each other because of that experience. my son accepted a new job and moved to santa monica last week! that means both of my sons are living in the same city for the first time in 12 years. i am thrilled that they will be together again and that my oldest son and my daughter-in-law will get to know each other well.
this means i'll leave nevada when my lease is up, at the end of august. i have six months to prepare for another new experience! i'm thinking about moving back to davis, california, hopefully to my very favorite community, where i have dear friends and lived for many years when my sons were younger. moving to the L.A. area, somewhere near the water and away from the insane traffic, is a possibility.
at first the thought of not living near my sons made me feel very uneasy. what if cancer returns and i'm far from them? interestingly, my mom's death has made me less afraid of cancer recurring and less worried about not living near my sons if that happens. seeing how amazing hospice is, seeing how painless death can be when you're in hospice care - it's so reassuring. sometimes i have to remind myself to appreciate my good health and my energy every day, not be distracted by worries about a future cancer. if it happens, it happens. my sons will come to me, hospice will be a relief for all of us, and it will all be fine. depending on where cancer would recur, i'm not sure i'd go through chemo again. anyway - i'm looking forward to new adventures, a new life, and lots of joy ahead!
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