Tuesday, December 22, 2009
12.22.09 - third follow-up checkup - vertigo
nevada winter - lots of snow to play in!
yesterday i had my third follow-up visit with dr. rost (in a video here with the co-founder of tomotherapy, thomas rockwell mackie) since treatment ended, including the usual bloodwork. i realized that of all the doctors i've dealt with since sept 2009, he is the only one who doesn't wear a white coat. and he always has the coolest, funkiest ties, which he says sometimes his daughter picks out for him. i love that he's so "real." it was GREAT to see him again and tell him about how welcoming everyone was in madison at tomotherapy, how exciting it was to give the presentation with kevin. dr. rost is "Mr. TomoTherapy" in many circles, was recruited by renown health network in reno to bring tomotherapy here, travels around the world speaking about it, and from everything i heard in madison, is adored by the people at TomoTherapy. and i adore him too. he's made all the difference in my treatment and recovery.
i have had episodes of vertigo off and on for over a year, but now the room spins and spins and spins each time i turn my head when i'm lying down. not my idea of a good night's sleep. dr. rost recommended an MRI with contrast (next tuesday), even though hopefully this is the result of an inner-ear situation - "let's do this right." i felt fine until i started thinking about a possible brain tumor, and then of course i had headaches all night! of course!
when i think seriously about cancer recurring, especially to the brain, my main concern is my mom. my worst fear is that she would feel heartbreak or helplessness or fear. she's 82, with early dementia, and i take care of all of her investments, bills, medical concerns, everything she can't do for herself anymore. she's been living with her wonderful beau for many years and she's very happy. but no one should outlive their children. there just couldn't be any any worse heartbreak that that. i don't want cancer to have that kind of power in my family. i can't help but think of it now as the wolf at the door.
i met with bobbi, nurse navigator extraordinaire and dear friend, and we exchanged gifts and caught up. i'm ecstatic that both she and dr. rost told me that exercising on my rebounder/trampoline is just as good, if not better, than a brisk 30-minute walk every day. what a relief! it's too damn cold to get exercise outside every day! and i love the rebounder. i run in place and twist and bounce and stretch for at least an hour every afternoon. supposedly it's great for the lymph system and circulatory system, plus it's FUN! and aren't we supposed to incorporate fun into our daily lives? absolutely.