this blog has come full circle. one year ago today i had my last mammogram. i remember that i had a sore spot almost in the center of my chest that i had mentioned to my GYN the day before. she couldn't feel a lump and said, "i'm sure you're fine." i had no real concerns the day of my mammogram, although i do remember that i purposely didn't mention the sore spot. that's how terrified i was of breast cancer. since finding out that my birth mother and her mother had died of breast cancer, i was just waiting for it to happen to me. i remember i had written a poem about my birth mother years ago and had written "my cancer waits inside you." i had a bone density test right after my mammogram, and then i got dressed and left quickly. i didn't check in with the radiologist about the mammogram, but i remember thinking i should. looking back, i realize i didn't want to know.
yesterday and this morning i was at the great reno balloon races at 5 a.m. thousands of people and hundreds of balloons. glorious colors and such great joy in the crowds, such a magnificent thrill when all the balloons are filled at the same time and take off into the sky. i'd much rather be doing this than going for a mammogram. and i'm so very happy i don't have to, ever again.
3 comments:
Guess there is an up side to everything! I'm happy for you.
I can picture you watching the balloons as they rose toward the sky, the joy in your soul rising with them. Be well.
deb, you're here, you're happy. that's the very best outcome. No more mammograms makes it a bonus! I got a letter from the radiology dept telling me I was due for one earlier this week. I had to laugh at it!
Be well!
-Sharon
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