5.24.09 - a happy simple life

yesterday i went to moana nursery to buy plants for my porch. this is one of the most beautiful nurseries i have ever been to - always a rich sensory experience. bubbling fountains inside the building and outside among the thousands of well-cared-for plants and flowers and trees, lots of bird baths and gardening knickknacks. i've been to moana many times, but yesterday was the first time since my cancer fiesta, and it felt so different. i was so keenly aware of how wonderful the sunshine felt, how beautiful the flowers and plants and trees were, how upbeat everyone seemed, milling around and pushing their carts filled with plants. i was luxuriating in the feeling of having all the time in the world to walk around in the sunshine and be surrounded by the wonderful smell of dirt and summertime. it feels so amazing to now have my normal, simple life back again. i think about those months of chemo and how bad i felt, how many days i spent wishing i could die rather than finish AC, how many mornings the neulasta had me crying in bed (before finally a doc prescribed the right pain meds), and i feel so sorry for myself and what i went through. i'm so glad it's over.

it was so wonderful this morning to rock in my rocking chair on the porch at 6 a.m., look at my new beautiful plants, drink coffee, write in my journal, look out at the mountains and feel healthy and happy. then at 7 i took an hour walk on the trail behind my house - eight miles.

this afternoon i had GLORIOUS FUN doing yardwork with my son and daughter-in-law and her brother at their house. i made pizza for us for brunch, and then we spent a few hours in their back yard. i was pulling weeds and they were landscaping. it was a hot day and really fun to feel the earth between my fingers, to laugh with them, take a lot of pictures. a perfect sunday.

the pool is open and my daughter-in-law is coming over to swim later.

no side effects from radiation so far! 30 more treatments to go and then off to texas!